Bittersweet Holiday Blues
|Vintage circa 1950s oil on canvas painting from a yard sale|
This is not an easy time of year for many people, and it will be a bittersweet time for me. It will be my first holiday divorced. It was finalized this summer after sixteen years of marriage.
But what's sweet? My ex-husband and I are on amicable terms. In fact he comes to visit "the kids" (our joint custody guinea pigs) on the weekends. He continues to be very supportive of my writing.
I have a lot to be grateful for, including the fact that I was able to stay in my home with the help of a terrific housemate. I will enjoy all of the vintage decorations I've spent over a decade collecting and cherishing.
This year will be lean financially so I plan to send packages of baked-with-love goodies as gifts this year. I won't be holding back on my cooking and celebrating, and my joy will be genuine.
You know what else I won't be doing? I won't be overeating, because it never fixes anything. I won't be feeding myself lines like: "Well, it's the holidays, so knock it off with the goody two-shoes number and let yourself go!" I won't try to "fix" the sad portions by burying them under too many helpings of cookies. I've learned over the years that being good to myself is the best balm of all. Being mean to myself, and overeating is just that, lost its allure.
If you're feeling blue this holiday season please be kind to yourself, and that means treating yourself well and not to more than is enough for you. If you're on a tight budget, can you make gifts this year instead of going into debt? You can still eat beautiful food even if it isn't prime. Cook and bake, even if you've never done it before. There's something magical and empowering about creating something from scratch.
I'll be posting holiday recipes to inspire you--and me!